This week was honestly kind of crazy. Between school and work, I feel like I was constantly doing something. I would go to class, do homework, go to work, come home, do more schoolwork, and then do it all over again. I kept telling myself I was fine and that I could handle it because there was always something else that needed to get done. Then I got pretty sick.
I think my body was basically telling me that I needed to slow down, even though I clearly wasn’t listening. I’ve always felt like if I have free time, I should be using it to get something done. There is always an assignment I could work on, a shift I could pick up, or something else I could be doing. But this week made me realize that being busy all the time doesn’t necessarily mean I’m being productive.
I’m only twenty, and sometimes I already feel like I’m supposed to be doing everything. I’m in college, I work, I’m thinking about my future, and I have so many things I want to accomplish. Sometimes I get so focused on everything I need to do that I forget that I’m also supposed to actually enjoy my life.
I don’t want to spend my twenties constantly exhausted because I was too busy trying to build my future. I think learning when to slow down is probably just another part of becoming an adult. Resting doesn’t mean I’m lazy or falling behind. Sometimes I really do just need to take a break and let myself exist without feeling guilty about it.
Pro tip: If you have to get sick before you give yourself permission to rest, you might want to rethink your priorities.
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